Bringing home the Birkin

2011-11-22T20:57:00.003+08:00

According to the principle of least interest, the person that is least committed to staying in a relationship has the most power, because that party won't be susceptible to threatened rejection.

Read this off somewhere. Makes sense to me.

2011-10-02T04:45:00.004+08:00

FAT AND HAPPY.

Still keeping my fingers X.

Anw, don't know why I enjoy sleeping after 5am. Facial tomorrow, save my face!!!

2011-07-24T11:07:00.002+08:00

OMG seriously. I sniggered at my last blog entry. Bag, got it. BS clothes, many more. And I've been spending fervently every other day. THIS is bad.

But life is good. It's down to the last week of my 7 months stint. wow oh wow. and I'm very happy with the pig. Hope my good feelings can last forever.

Have been meeting up with many friends recently. Love them~ :3

2011-06-03T00:35:00.002+08:00

BAM! Alexander Wang's niece. Like a little black swan.

R is finally back to work. But we still haven't got to see the bike. Stupid TP.

Money is depleting. My left brain is telling me to throw my money into a TD acct, while my right brain says "GET THAT GODDAMN BAG!!!"

WTF.

I'm planning to fork out 1k for the coming tw trip in aug, and another 1k for the shanghai trip in dec. That's like one Proenza Schouler. I need a financial counselor. NOW.

And that's not including blogshopping. The more I try to control, the more I spent. This is like binging, emotional eating, and whatever disorder there might be. This June, I'm hoping I would not spend on BS. But I have a skirt in mind already, and I want it so badly. Hopefully this will be my only BS item this month. ONLY, if only.

xx

2011-05-25T01:12:00.002+08:00

Why can't people die without pain and sorrow?

I really want to die and leave everything now.

No I didn't break up or whatever. But I'm easily affected and I suspect myself suffering from disorder. I don't know what, maybe bipolar.

Or if we can die together, that will be great.

Since you always say you feel like dying.

2011-05-23T00:26:00.002+08:00

Why is it that some angmoh actresses can look chubby & not exactly slim, but ppl still scream "HOTTTTT" at them?

Anyway, I'm beginning to dread human interaction.

My mensus is coming and I'm pissing everyone in any possible way.
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2011-05-14T13:02:00.011+08:00

DAI GA HOU~~~ 大家好！

I dont know why I suddenly bothered to sit in front of my desktop, and come to here! It's been TWO big months since I last blogged. Guess what I've been working for 5 and half months already. In no time, I'll be leaving the bank & heading to Taiwan for a wk, and lastly going back to HELL.

Aiya people always say treasure your school life, schooling is so much better than working. Okok .... That's cos you don't have 3 more sems to go, that's like 12 more exams to be taken. WTF. And I dont know if I want to take summer study. So maybe I can grad in 2 sems like the rest. But if I take summer study, it means I can't find a proper 3mths internship. DILEMMA DILEMMA. Life is so fucking full of dilemmas.

Recently went drinking at Level33 with my favourite people from internship :D Aiya how come this is the only group photo. And I look drunk, wa kao. Anyhow the finger food was great (and expensive too!). I love the viewwwwwwww. OMG.

Eeee hairy arms at the back. Bleah.

And on Sunday 8 May 2011, Ryan had a bike accident. Which almost shocked me to death. Imagine receiving a call at 3am saying that he got into an accident, and at that time I dont even know if he's alive or not. Maybe you dont feel like it has shocked me so much cos usually when I just received news of sth bad, I'm pretty stoned & emotionless.

Oh well. So he has been indoors for a week now, and we ordered in pizza ytd! And he made some tapas. LOL! This goes to show that the disabled are not useless!!

His left collarbone is now fractured. And has this huggggge orh ceh. The holy place, untouchable. NEVER. And his two arms have alot of scratches and abrasion. His face has one huge scar above his eyebrow. WHAT IF HE DOESNT HAVE EYEBROW NEXT TIME. And just one side. Might as well shave off the other one. Hmm. And his head got one bruise too, and when I rinsed his head, some dirty blood will flow out. URGHHHHH.

Imagine I were on the bike that day, I don't think I am able to write this entry already. SHIT. The last entry you will see is the big ass pancake (refer to previous post).

He was wearing tshirt & jeans. His tshirt was ruined and jeans was ripped at the hem & the left side. His shoes was .. a disaster, like kana some explosion, found at the mine. AND HE JUST BOUGHT HIS SHIRT & SHOES FROM PAUL FRANK. WTF! And his helmet's shield was broken, smeared with blood blah blah. So imagine if i were on the bike, with slippers, shorts, & singlet (That was what I was wearing that night)..... and my helmet isn't any better, pretty loose actually.

I think I will fly all the way to Changi Airport, take plane and go to heaven liao.

And we celebrated Dom's belated bday! He was looking so handsome that day. I love curly hair! HAHAHAHA ^^

Wrote him a card & gave him 20 wishes (we cant think of the last 2, so he's supposed to come up with them). And a skinny chino pants from Topshop. BURNT ORANGE colour somemore. We knew he will love it, and suits him well!!

Brought my family to Mouth's Restaurant at China Sq. Dim sum! To celebrate Mother's Day. My mum is the greatest mum of all. She is young, pretty, funny, does housework without complain, let me do almost anything I want, never before she pressurized me abt my studies. So Ryan & I treated them to a good meal! YUMS!!!!

This is one of my fav. ORH NI with pumpkin~~

During the week when Mummy & Jun went to BKK, Ryan & I cooked for all of us. Carbonara & quesadillas! :D Very fatty, but we like!

And I finally went to USS with my bunch of friends!!! :D I sat on the roller coaster for like 3 times? Some of them took the ride for 7 times?! Siao one. AHhahaa.

We had a picture with PO! Can u recognise the animals we were posing as?

We had fun!!

Our dinner at Gary dad's workplace was aweeeeeeeesome to the max. And it was free in the end. LOL!

Seems like my colleagues are going USS in July. Oh no, should I follow???

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I miss you. Really hope we can start going out, eat, watch movies, and whatever~~ :P

I miss you too! I dreamt of you last night. I dont think I looked at you. Cos now I recall, I can't rem how you looked in my dream. You finally came back & we all went to buy a new sofa. We went on cruise. And during the time, I thought "Ok you will be gone the next time I opened my eyes." The next day came & I searched the whole house, I couldn't find you like I expected. Even your smell was gone.

I woke up from my dream. I cried :(

No wonder I slept for 12 hours yesterday night.

每当想起你，我还会哭。真的很没有用。

2011-03-18T01:17:00.002+08:00

Super sinful pancake. BUTTER + SUGAR. There's so much butter, it drips while you eat it.

I'm blogging cos I need to remove the Virgo Sex thing. It's been there for too long, I suppose?

I received my OPI Black Shatter yesterday.

Did it with Teenage Dreams as the base. It looks weird here. But I'm slowly getting used to it. The trick is to not put so much black shatter. I'm always tempted to say "crackle" cos it basically cracks eh?

Watched this movie Ghost that day.

Korean actor with the japanese actress. THEY ARE MAD HUNKY & PRETTY. The actress is how old already. I watched her since young but she still looks so awesome like 25years old.

I didnt really cry. Cos it's quite "fantasy" eh? A soul left its body after death, and to find the murderer and communicate with her husband? Hmm. It's a remake of the english movie. The one when the couple go "Ohhhh my love, my darling" and they mould the clay together? Yup, that's the one.

When can I get a Celine? It's crazily pretty !!! Btw the actress in Ghost carried a khaki coloured Celine Shopper Tote too. How can she not get robbed? (She was robbed cos of the notebook in her bag.) Oh well.

TGIF. Can't wait :D

2011-03-04T17:24:00.002+08:00

hehe.

came home early from work today. there wasnt any work actually. just training. yawns. and my stomach is like crazy. cant stop wanting to shit. wtf, my asshole hurts okay.

torn btween home or jap class. seriously. it's ending in 2wks i guess? Not ending, but I shall make it end. My brain can't absorb ANYMORE. It's too cold in class anyway.

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jus came back from shitting.

WTF!!!!

2011-03-02T19:04:00.001+08:00

Hello

Better be good.

2011-02-28T03:02:00.001+08:00

You will regret, I'm sure.

2011-02-26T02:11:00.000+08:00

I miss you.

2011-02-18T00:16:00.003+08:00

Right.

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Just did:
60 Jumping Jacks
50 Crunches
40 Squats
30 Leg Lifts
20 Jumping Jacks (I know, I know)
10 Minutes of running

Hahaha! Exercising can be interesting too! :)

I still do eat. A LOT.

Today's lunch

Yesterday's supper

The day before's supper

Some day's supper

LIKE SERIOUSLY??
Been eating non stop.

Skated after such a long time.
Our successful shot. But it's shaky. Yeah whatever.

(We are wearing the skates!! Hahaha..... LAME)

And we sent our dear Karyn away to Austria.... Gahhh!! That lucky girl. And there's really nth to cry about. HAVE FUN MAN~~~

Finally, it's TGIF tml.
Not that I have massive plans for tml. Just happy.

Shall go bathe now. xoxo~

2011-02-13T12:33:00.003+08:00

CNY is about to be over soon. Sobbbbb :(

Yesterday was the last lou hei! SAKAE refused to answer my calls since noon. So thanks to HM & CY, they made their way down to Bishan to get it! Along with the CNY party tray! Wheeee.

We just indulged in these sushi. And did nth till Lassie joind us. That person..... Oh well, better late than never. We hate "never". I think friendship doesn't come easy? If one side is not willing to make the effort, then it'll never happen.

(P.S Guess what Sakae just called me cos I sent them an order via their order form on their website. SUCKS??!! My order was supposed to be for ytd, of cos! And the person still dared to call me? I just kap the phone, didnt even say Bye.)

Anyhow, this is our yu sheng platter!!

It tasted pretty good! But the amt of salmon sashimi depends on its platter size de lor. We got the Medium one :D Tried the large one at my workplace and it was ... GREAT!! I kept binging on the salmon only. Hehehe.

You know the trick about yusheng is that you cant do it so obviously that you just want the salmon. So you have to find the unnoticeable ones. Then kiap it along with some veggies to hide it! Tadah! Then kiap another small bunch of veggies (maybe just a few strands) to show ppl that you are not choosing. WAHAHAHA.

LAME.

Get ready!!

HUAT AH!!

And we went to Joo Seng for some KTV!! We are so gonna book the outside table the next time we go there !! :D

Hanged out wi Joyce & HY @ Ion!! Itacho for dinner and it was balls of awesome!!! Dying to go back there again :D

Anw, hope HY loves our presents for her! The cute pair of owl earrings and accessories from Topshop~~ Happy 22nd!! (The next one is Joyce liao......)

I like this photo actually. Hahaha .. I think this shows genuine laughter. Sometimes I think photos are pretty fake. You pose, you smile. But do you really feel happy right then? Or actually hai hao? Hmmmm ... But okay la posed photos are usually the prettiest. Oh well!

Maybe I should go for a run now. HAVENT BEEN JOGGING THIS ENTIRE WEEK. (But at least I've been doing some light exercises & skipping everyday. Hehehe)

xoxo.

2011-02-07T00:54:00.002+08:00

Fuck it's Monday.

Shall wash off my mask, and hit the bed.

P.S I got sunburnt in Batam @_@

2011-02-03T10:28:00.002+08:00

年初一～～恭喜发财！

Remember not to do any work, spend too much money on this day! Hahah ;D

Was supposed to leave work at 4pm ytd. But suddenly in the middle of work, big boss came whispering to us that people from this particular dept gonna leave right after lunch. So .... We should too! Hahaha. So yeah, it felt so good. We walked far to have lunch and slowly jalan back. I sat there for 10mins and off I go! ;D I dont think I even do any substantial work that day. (or any other day........)

Ytd's reunion dinner was at Bedok. With grandparents, my family and Cephas uncle & wife. So it was comfortable and all. Little did I know, last year could be the last proper cny i could spend happily with EVERYONE. I used to think how blessed I am to have a great family, in the sense that I'm super happy to be ard them... My grandparents, my uncles & aunties. In fact, allll relatives. But aft what had happened, i guess I'm wrong. Some people see money above kinship.

Mummy was telling us in the future when she's not around anymore, and sth happened to that person, DO NOT help in anything.. Not even putting a joss stick for him. And she really meant it.

Really? Sigh.

I just know that 过去就让它过去。No point bearing these thoughts. Sometimes, just let it go. Karma will settle for us. Confirm, I swear. 有因就有果。Never underestimate it.

And needless to say, it's the same for the company. Now I finally understood why my dad is so important. He might not be always around us. But once he left us, for good, everything just crumbled. People turned their back on us. Whatever so called "brothers" have also become strangers. But of course there are some who really stood there for us till today. We are really grateful.

For now, in this new year i just hope all the 小人 can disappear or if not, just keep away from us.

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Nuff' said, my family will be leaving in abt 2hrs time. Our first time to Batam! Actually for me it's 2nd but it was just 2days of doing nth that all of us cant even remember.

So yeah! Heard that there are a lot of watersports, beach, cheap seafood & shopping to do there! Hope I wont be disappointed. In fact, I didnt even research about anything to do in Batam. We would just go there & settle as usual. Hahaha!

xoxo!! dont miss me!! (though I know I should be able to find wifi anywhere I go)

2011-02-02T01:02:00.008+08:00

HELLO

I love this month. Cos it's SHORT. Can't wait for the mini break.

Caught Shaolin today. I thought there's gonna be Andy Lau only. But turned out there're Nicholas Tse & Jackie Chan. As usual, Jackie is funny, Andy is handsomeeee, and Nicholas is abit... crazy? Anyhow the movie is great! Touchingggg...... and I'm proud to say I'm a Buddhist! Wahahah. Anyway I'm a permanent Buddhist (for quite some time alrdy, if you haven know). I even got my own cert that states my Buddhist name. So next time when I'm dead, this cert has to be burned tgt with my body :) Sth like an entry pass? LOL!!!

It was a Busy night. After the movie at 930, I watched an epi of Kang Xi on TV. Do leg exercises. 500 times of skipping. Watched Kang xi again (but it's the Jay chou's episode on pptv. Cos I will miss it on fri) while putting black mask, and also waxing my legs. After that, it's drying mask, while applying toning cream & whitening lotion on my legs. Apply SKII treatment essence, and apply normal mask while tumblring, blogsurfing & facebooking. Spray some Naruko essence. And apply eyecream.

Yup I think I'm almost ready to sleep. I need to be as hardworking like today, for any other day.

I think if you look pretty, it doesnt matter if you are fat. One revelation I got today. #Justsaying.

2011-01-30T00:19:00.003+08:00

CRAVING FOR THIS.

I AM SICK.
PILLS MAKE ME DROWSY.
THE RAIN MAKES IT EVEN WORSE.

We are finally moving into the CNY week.

Done with 1 mth of internship. 6 more to go!

2011-01-28T22:32:00.002+08:00

Naruko! Bought the 白玉兰 and Tea tree range. Used the tea tree facial cleanser. It can help to exfoliate (with the little bits inside) and doesnt have a lot of foam. Whats cool is it is so minty. I know tea tree is supposed to be cooling but this one is like .. Applying toothpaste on your face. Haha shiok!

Tried the bai yu lan hydrating spray too. Nice smell. But i dont see how much it can do la. Just a spray. Keep your face fresh after makeup.

Its BB cream essence (in purple) doesnt have much coverage. But it's supposed to help prevent dirt and acts more like a base.

But anyhow got it off internet promotion price and flew over by my sis's friend sister. Hahaha the person whom I thought is weeeirdd..... But anyhow since she did us this big favour, my perception has changed!

Squid ink skinny pizza! Had it at Raffles place. The restaurant is big and its menu has a lot more variety now! Wanna try English Breakfast pizza (with runny egg in the middle) but ... OOS!! arghhh ;(

Bling bling~~~~

The sparkling jewels on Ky's recent mango inspired dress ($35!!). Thank God i started dieting cos it's like JUST nice on me. Zzzzz. This dress, though as gorgeous as can be, needs to be improved on its measurements!! I'm happy I chose black. Wont look that bloated. Hehe!

Should I get the vday dressss? I was like nayyy when I saw it on pictures. But KY was so nice to bring all colors and showed them. The gathered chiffon at the chest area has a (slight) bone structure. Though I dont rly fancy the frills, but the chiffon is so smooth. And guess what, they have blush pink which is sweet TTM.

If I still have a boyfriend, I'd totally buy it. Bleah.

I need to puke. Too much mocha. I'm asking everyone around me to get Starbucks card. Hahah. I wanna change my card to the classic sepia design. Yes they allow it!! Teehee ;)

Okay getting off the bus now. Ciao!

2011-01-28T02:43:00.001+08:00

Most desperate of all, it has to be you.
Disgust.

Hope your balls rot.

2011-01-27T00:07:00.003+08:00

DONT YOU JUST LOVE ALL THESE SONGS???? Must listen to all of them!

Just came back from going out with blurblurri. And I feel much better. Finally got to shop ard... Though I didnt buy anything, I felt as good. I think I'm the kind who will brood over things when I'm alone. SIGH.

And Joyce helped me to call HH & I told him about my story of chasing money. Hahaha! Not that I want to talk bad about JZ. I always think that JZ is a v capable & responsible person so cheating my money is highly unlikely. I believe he is v busy and etc. But as busy as he might be, he should at least return me a sms or call? Let me know he got my msg?? And tells me he's busy again. Yeah okay.

So anyhow I hope he can just pass the money (I dont even know the exact sum. Just gimme a rough $80 will do) to HH and HH will pass to Marissa, and Marissa to Joyce. Phew. Hopefully. What a long chain. Isnt it faster to use ibanking??? I agree OCBC ibanking pretty sucky. But DBS ibanking is SOOO idiot-proof. Why oh whyyyyy.

TWO more days to weekend.

Okay, I must go and complete my second day of tumblr exercise regime. LOL!!

2011-01-25T13:23:00.002+08:00

Our last photo.

Goodbye

2011-01-25T01:16:00.001+08:00

I just discovered something cool about blogger. They let me have an email address, and whatever that i sent to this email add will be posted on this blog. Pretty cool. Used to write using blogger app. But ever since it's down, i've stopped.

But anyhow my inspiration of this entry came from you. Again.

I'm trying to ask you something nicely. Cos you reacted damn strongly that day. And i just wanted to find out what triggered that. But, you chose to give me ambiguous answers and what .. Is this what u called "better for us" or a proper closure? No.

And you mentioned something about letting me down too many times. Yes, you're right. And I bet right after we quarrelled over sth so minor, and sth else that I knew you were hiding but refused to say over your dead body, you went ahead to party, couldnt wait to know more girls in club or whatever hooker place, and of course dyingggg to add them on fb. Surprise surprise! I really can guess you well huh. This is what you always do eh? I dont even need to guess. I'm pretty sure i'm right.

You told me to move on, forget the past, this is better for us yada yada. Totally irrelevant. Yes, we are both moving on already. I know right, you cant wait. Me too. But this is not what I'm asking from you. I want to know what were you thinking. But somehow, you just kept quiet. And said you dont know anything?

So everything is an overreaction? Is your oversuspicion? Pretty ridiculous.

2011-01-22T14:43:00.002+08:00

This's just a big wholesome lie. You. Me. Everything.

Go ahead and party all you want, cos yes you need it.
-roll my eyes to the back of my head-

I know I can do better without you. We don't need each other anyway.
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2011-01-12T01:10:00.002+08:00

Now that I've to wake up at 730am almost everyday. I STILL sleeps at 1 plus 2. This is very bad. I get very sleepy after work.... till 10pm. I will become energetic again, probably due to boost from TV or afterwork strolling ard.

BTW. Am into my 2nd week of internship. I can't believe I sold myself for 7 months. I wish I could blink my eye now. Tadah, it's July. But no, after 10 tries, still no :( Not that I hate this workplace. I think being an intern is pretty much like this, esp in an universal bank. I absolutely don't think I'm capable just for these ... I need something challenging. Stop belittling interns! (Okay maybe they aren't but ...)

Basically what I worry the most is getting fat. TMD, I don't even get to roam ard much after lunch. Just the walk back .. say 5mins? And I'm back to my royal chair. My butt is like the size of earth now. And my tummy .. the ridges of Mt Everest. Tried to eat lesser, but failed. I can only get time off on wkends to do some exercise. I know I will do it, cos it just feels VERY uncomfortable NOT to exercise. How weird.

Looking through exchange matters ... just makes me feel pretty sad. Cos I don't think I will be going? Japan is damn sickening cos they only have like 1 or 2 vacancies per uni. And their sem is totally weird from Sep - Feb?? I dont want to miss one month of school man! But actually, what I'm concerned is it might clash with the trip in Dec? I should be going away in 2nd wk of Dec. And when they say the sem ends Mid Dec, I suppose it would clash then? BIG SIGH, MAJOR SIGH. FML!

Even so, who the hell should I go ask for the references. PROFS?? I am not close to any profs. And I hate acting fake, heeheehaha just to get something out of someone. Zzzz.

I'm trying hard to blog. Esp with some pictures. I simply love my iphone too much, it works well as a phone, a powerful social network gadget, and a super cool camera!!! FYI I just download a cool app called 8mm Vintage Camera. With that name, I suppose it is a camera? I tried it out & the effects are nice~~ Vintage, that is. But I found out its true function soon enough. It's not a camera that captures still pictures. It takes videos. You could make it look like some 1920s B&W movies. So cool! And I made didi pipi act and say hello to my video. For ppl who watch iCarly show (on Disney channel), it's something like that :D

Just wanna say,

My waigong & waipo. MEGA LOVE!!! I always wish I'm angmoh. Or act like angmoh. So I can kiss and hug my family whenever I want and don't feel awkward at all. But thats impossible. I'm socially awkward by nature.

I should really really find a stone. A nice stone, that preferred to be found at dry places (I said dry places cos I scared if ard water or under a tree ... it might trap some dirty things??). Also, big enough, like your fist.

Tough, pretty tough.

2010-12-31T16:58:00.003+08:00

Alright!! This is the time to say "Imma write the last post for this year!"

My makeup's all done. Havent really thought of what to wear. Heading out for dinner later. The annual 31/12/xx dinner, as usual. I think the last time my family went tgt was 2yrs ago? Several times my dad wasn't in Singapore and now, he won't be here ever more. What's new this year is my grandparents (maternal), cousins & auntie are joining us. Even the cutie baby Charvin is here! I hope she won't cry. Guess what, I'm actually scared to look at her, cos she will cry if strangers look at her. Haha!!

The recent xmas gathering at my waipo's house :D Charvin is here with that exact hairdo.

Xmas was great. LOADS of food. I had to go into 4days diet after that.

And we cooked! For the first time???! Well, I often mentioned about how Ryan can cook. It's time to show it. But as usual, he loves to add too much salt, pepper, butter (wadever that's as fattening as can be)

Part of the spread ;)

Ryan & I happened to be in pinky shades

I made 19 lava cakes!! My first attempt and I think it's not bad liaoooo. Topped with icecream, it's bezt!! My next baking session will be . . . . I DUNO? Cheesecake? Apple Strudel?

Celebrated Karyn's bday!! Finally, our last one. And she was SUPER (bleeding) HOT. To think we kept discussing about her underwear, I think other guys surely :S :S :S (Cannot take it)

I miss this garlic rice. Every bit of rice is stained with dark garlic. YUMS.

Went to Night Safari with Joyce & Melvin. Highlight is I lost my precious specs there. Sigh.... I feel so unfilial and spoilt. The guilt is still there. $800. My dad's last birthday present for me. Oh well. At least because of that, I was determined to do Lasik. Forever and ever. Be gone! And I'm gaining my eyesight back. Everytime when Ryan rides me ard, I look at the road, the signs, the cars... Blurry and esp in the night, it's bad :( But now when im on the road, I always close one eye, open the other & vice versa. Hahah just to check that both my eyes are clear now! It's an amazing feeling!

Btw the cost is $1288/eye (SMU students discount), $57 (post-op initial medicine), $80+ (pre-evaluation. but refundable after op), $34 (subsequent medicine). And I'm only doing one eye. But it's def more worth it to do both eyes, cos u see the same doctor, get the same med. But u can use it for two eyes. Eh? :D

And the 3 women in the house went over to BKK for some shopping fix :) Happy 5days4nights spent tgt. We had Som Boon seafood as usual. GREAT!! Chatuchak (But it's getting boring there alrdy cos it's expensive and tiring to walk)... and we found a new shopping place called Victory Point! No pictures cos I dont take pictures often. All in my phone but I lost them all. I think I tweeted most of them but yeah, just lazy to post them up.

I'm a tweetfreak now :D

Highlight of the trip is we went to see Bai Long Wang!!! Omggggg. Went to Patpong in the night to get all-white attires & kana ripped off abit. Slept for 45mins, set off at 3am. Got lost abit, and reached at 5am. Just nice the disciples came out to give the car number. And we got our first "ticket"! But it's not official, so it's damn scary & exciting. Once the gate opened at 530am, we drove in. We are the second last car!! There are 30 vans in front of us.....

We were puzzled how a temple can hold so many vans? And we realised.. WHOA the temple is HUGE! It's like the president's house. Need to drive into the lane, the garden then the big temple. Everyone started to get down and hurry register (TO GET THE GOLDEN NUMBER TAG!!). This number is to see if you can see Bai Long Wang. Because he only sees the first 100 people everyday. For those who dont know who is Bai Long Wang, this means u dont read tabloid or follow any HK/TW news. He's Tony Leung's godfather. Shu Qi, Andy Lau etc etc, even Luo Zhi Xiang aso got went to visit him before.

But too bad that day we didnt see any artistes. Only some super duapai HK ppl. They can just get into the "VIP" queue to speak to Bai Long Wang and they had special rituals. So good ... Sigh. This is when you say "You Qian Dai Sai". Anyhow it's known that he will only talk less than 2mins with each person. If you are lucky, 3. And we got number 65-69. Hahaha happy like hell. I mean it's the anticipation~~

And I had a bday trip to Langkawi with family and ryan :D Spent 3days there and it's very relaxing~ That was the Spa place. Very very pretty view!

My Birthday :)

You dont know how drunk I am. But very fun! Hhhaha and I managed to fulfill my wish of throwing water at people. LOL!! And cupcake & whatever.

With my presents. That I have been using. At that time I had no idea what I was doing. Just messing things ard. Gahh!

THAT is the culprit. Me looking in awe.

Cupcakes!! (I'm not really a fan of cupcakes. But I love it cos its name is CUPCAKE. SO CUTE!!)

And there were many many fun we had....

2010-12-16T03:46:00.002+08:00

After 1.5yrs, I finally fixed my laptop. I wanted to sell it away, but found a place to fix it. $140, instead of $800. I hope it will last me for at least a yr please!

Been eating LOADS. Just found an awesome popcorn place at Citylink. Small packet is A LOT and it's $8. Worth it! But this kind of thing cannot eat too often, get sick of it pretty fast esp when it's caramel (SUPER SWEET). But ryan likes the cheese (cos he loves salty popcorn....) But thats good cos we wont fight for the same thing! :D

Going to BKK tomorrow morning. I can't wait to visit the fortune teller that Nana said it's very good. LOL!!

To do list:
- Check out boxing gloves
- Buy black heels (preferably platformed)
- Hair dye
- Chanel earrings (IF I can find the pair I want at the airport)
- Buy top/bottom for ryan
- Visit the fortune teller & get sth out of it
- Go temple to pray for next yr's good luck
- Buy more pocky sticks
- Visit Sabai Sabai
- Check out BB casing for HY

Thats about it :D

And maybe come back with 3000 high score for Veggie Samurai. Wahaha!!

2010-12-03T16:56:00.002+08:00

December december baby.

2 more days to my japanese exam but i'm absolutely not ready at all. Been a huge procastinator and enjoying my holidays since last wed. Hehe ;)))) Too bad it's only gonna be one month. Afterwards.... I might be working. Shall see then ..... ;(

This morning there was a weird pinoy standing outside my door.
"Hello~~ hello~" calling out for anyone like a prisoner behind bars. Zzz why did we even leave the door open? Anyway, I was standing and listening to her. It freaked me out a little cos I dont know if she will suddenly throw a knife or maybe an egg at me. And as I was staring at her but not speaking a word, she kept waving her hand and asked "Hello? You understand me? You understand english?" Lol, fuck her. And she continued saying that she's from 4 levels down my unit & even told me the unit no. She said that nobody answered her at the door. Err seriously, i wouldnt open my door too if i see someone like that outside.

And after that she told me she needed to get to ICU asap and needed $10 to take cab. Cos her mum passed away. Hmmm how can my neighbour have no money and she looks like in her early 40s only? Bleah, she's not even crying. So i just waved my hand and walked away. But i was thinking if she was downstairs and claimed that she lost her wallet, i might just give her $5. Cos it really could be that she had no money to go hospital.

Lolll and my mum was telling jun what happened. Mummy said that I jus shooed her away, seemed like so heartless!! =.=
Mummy was like "You should have told her. My father also passed away. You give me $20 can?"
WAHAHA ... i think the weird pinoy will scold me leh.

I wanna watch Rapunzel, rapunzel. Let down your hair~
Heard that the ending is abit weird (according to pipi.) so it might be her who is the weird one.

TIRED. NAP AWAY~~

2010-11-22T23:22:00.002+08:00

Dramatic dream.

My family saw my tutee lurking ard the toilet wi his bad friends. When we were about to confront them, there was a gang behind us & it soon turned into a riot.

I and an uncle (..?) happened to get into the car to flee away or rather go and get police. Cos impossible that i will leave my family there.

And in the car.. You get many ppl chasing the two of us, trying to open the door and i need to lock the doors asap. And one of them got the window down. So i stabbed him? And i cried cos i thought that I need to go jail liao. But i told the uncle "Nvm you will be my witness right?"

When I reached somewhere (like an office building), i realised it's ryan who was wi me. I began to use my ipod as phone to call police. She was a very nice lady and her surname is 蓝小姐... So i proceeded to tell her a long grandma story. And when i reached the part when I'm supposed to say who it is, I thought of many real names (all the uncles..aka my dad's friends). But i said 黄日华........ Omg.

Soon after he suddenly came into the enclosed glassroom where I was at while talking on the phone. He asked me to show him what i was doing & i managed to change to some song instead. After that I walked ard the building, saw him agaim, saw ryan again. Then I left.

I think i was at some interchange and I went to take mrt. I had a destination in mind ... But I forgot alrdy. Oh well ....

TO BE CONTINUED ... (maybe?)

2010-10-18T14:07:00.002+08:00

Can I bid goodbye to my suay luck already?

I lost my specs. If it's just a $150 specs, it's okay really. BUT IT'S NOT. 4 times of that actually. I went all the way back to Zoo to look for it (cos we were just around Upp Thomson anyway). But we couldnt find it cos it was already 1230am. The Night Safari gates were shut down already. Fuck right. I am sure it's just inside la. I called them the next morning and they said they didnt find anything. SIGH. Seriously, who will go look out for a specs.

Told my mum abt it and she was like "曾芷诺啊~~~~~~" I told her abt my suay day that day and it must be cos I wore black. She was like "You should have gone back home to change your shirt immediately when you don't feel gd!!" =.=

Therefore, I want to go cut short hair already. I've decided. But also cos I am losing A LOT OF HAIR everyday. Due to my eating habits and appetite, I suppose. Most importantly, I can't stand myself in the same hairstyle for so long. Boring ttm. I need some change. I will go to the saloon later. (I'm in the midst of IB class now. Dreaddddddddddddddd)

Going to go for IPL tml...... Talk abt it. Zzzz
Please don't let anything go wrong again.

2010-10-12T01:59:00.002+08:00

I'm FREAKING HOT!!!
Yeah like sweating mother hot!!!

BKB didnt allow me to take away the statements. I did what I could and tadah, I just printed them out. Set contrast and auto color somemore. The more I look at the statement, the angrier I get. It's INFURIATING. It's like ya you know it's happening but you can't really feel it until you see it.

The letter to PT was useless. Wtf. Are they thinking that I'm writing crap? Or they have too many things to handle? Aren't they supposed to help the citizens? All bullshit. Help always comes the slowest, but when they are asking for money, they're faster than Spiderman coming.

Now I'm searching for the addresses in bkk. I need a translator. Google translate sucks. I know it's not bad already, but still....

In life, you need to know two persons. Doctor and lawyer. They will save you, help you big time. Now I know why they paid so much to study. Their future gains are SO SO SO MUCH. It's worth it.

I submitted my IB essay which is gonna suck big time. But sigh, I don't really care. I don't have the heart to do it leh. It's like I probably have a bit more time to add things. But i'm really just sick of it. It's post-holiday syndrome. Arghhhh !!!

Pw was changed. I tried to crack into the mail. But, it was XXX who set the email. And of course, only he will know the TWO security questions. Fuck fuck fuck. And the worst thing, the alternative email was .. invalid? Like I don't even know how to access it. I need the answers!!!

I'm blogging so much nonsense, that no one will understand unless you are one of them, or you are my mother. Anyway, so many things are happening, I can't even tell all of them to the pig. It's like sometimes I thought that he knew it already but in fact he doesnt. My brain is getting filled up to its capacity.... things are leaking here and there. Sigh.

I overate today. Potato chips, chili cheese baked potato, OCK curry puff, smoked duck hor fun, teddy graham plus milk.

I SHALL RESTRAIN TML.
And I'm going IPL !!!! My first time. Hope the money will be worth it! $188 unlimited times.

And ...

LOL

2010-10-05T13:09:00.002+08:00

Got to know this song during Adam Lambert's Idol time. A very sad and meaningful song. Cos the lyrics are so true.

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere
Going nowhere
And the tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
And in my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
And I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very... mad world... mad world...

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very... mad world... mad world...
Mad World
Mad World

2010-10-05T05:31:00.001+08:00

Crying on bed again. It gets pretty frequent recently. Like i can suddenly have an emotional outburst anywhere, on the bus .. walking .. during meeting omg. It scares me.

I was watching Apocalypse on Discovery Channel & it brought me back to the topic about death again. So daunting, so unimaginably scary that it really gave me chills just thinking about my own death. Where do they really go? Nobody knows what happens and this is why to me, it is like the biggest horror movie that can ever be. Cos at least every other movie has an ending known & given to us.

I always imagine it as falling into the black hole. Your energy is drained to zero and you are completely blank. Blank is the word, which is what I'm afraid the most.

And it's not about having regrets in your life, or having accomplished most out of your life. Not for me though. Even if I'm the most successful person in the world, I would still be afraid. Actually, the more I would be, since I'll lose so much more right? So I cannot really understand how people can say "I'm not afraid to die, as I have no regrets anymore."

BTW not crying cos I'm afraid to die. Don't know how I digressed to this point. But anyway, it's supposed to be my mid term break now but more like an use-it-to-catch-up-on-assignments-&-projects week. Sigh right?

I need to have an idea! The one that works, yes! You won't succeed if you follow the crowd. How true is this statement? You know your idea will be successful if people shout "Crazy!!" when they first hear it. So how to have a craazzzy idea that is not following the herd? Even bungee jump has been done before, so i need something crazier than that? Plus money, of course.

Whatever it is, I must sleep now. Bonne nuit :3

2010-09-24T13:25:00.003+08:00

Hmmmmm I'm getting better already. But the main problem is my lungs. My nose is blocked, thats okay. My throat has phlegm, thats okay. But my lungs are so tight!! Like I can't even breathe or talk properly. I have to talk slowly and pause in between words. Oh man, is that what happens when a person is dying? So terrible to be gasping for air and there is only this much that you can take in.

Mummy told me that my neighbour (actually it's my pri sch, sec sch mate plus ex-tuition mate too)'s father had leukemia (blood cancer in other words?). But I think he should be fine now since he had the bone marrow op already. So I happened to see the photos of my neighbour, which include family photos of course. (Ever notice how ppl don't usually upload photos of their family until they know that something has happened?) Anyway recently, the elder sister graduated and I'm happy for them. At least all of them were there to witness her commencement, even though their father looks so dark and frail i almost couldn't recognise him.

Jun's friend (or one of the very best friends actually)'s mom discovered that she has breast cancer recently. Breast cancer may not be as 'terminal' as the other cancers but there is a reason why it is in the top 2 (heart disease is number 1) killers of women. Because most of the time people don't go for body check up and without that, you really won't know. The friend's mom had been going for checkups but ever since the last 3 years, she stopped. And guessed what, here it comes. And by then, it's the 4th stage already.

And just last week, my mom's uncle passed away due to cancer too.

Let me quote Didi.
"CURSE YOU CANCER CELLS!!!"

Cancer could be genetic, but I believe it is largely due to environment and what you do (eating habits/ sleeping habits/ exercise etc). But basically, even if you don't smoke, you can get lung cancer (like what happened to my granduncle). So it means it can really happen to anyone.

Everytime I see the pig eats like nobody's business, esp the fried & oily stuffs, what I was thinking in my head is actually ... Do I have the money to pay for our medical bills in the future? How do I earn these money? Do I have to start buying insurance now since it will be cheaper at this age? and things like that . . .

Not trying to curse him of course. Why would anybody want their loved ones to die? But, I guess no one really cares about all these until it happens to people close to you. Or maybe, you yourself. (which I think I have a HIGH chance)

Burp. But still let's try to eat our hearts out for now ! Wahahha <3

2010-09-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

I am sick. It's like I don't feel like wasting my energy to talk or move or laugh or even look at you.

Not you. But just anybody.

Hmmmmmm ... I think I eat so much for nothing lor. Also cannot protect me. Always get sick. The doctor held my wrist, frowned and said "Hmmmm I think your body is very weak. Sure will get sick at least once every month"

Mummy: "What once?! Two or three times aso can!" (You know how mothers love to kua zhang?)

Mid terms next week. I NEED TO BLOODY GET WELL ASAP!!!

P.S I wonder if Taylor Swift is a fake name?

2010-09-14T18:19:00.000+08:00

I survived my 21st birthday.

Btw I was wondering, if someone asks you to write a biography about yourself.. How do you start? What would you write? How long will it be? How would you end it?

"I'm living it.
Be back soon."

2010-09-12T21:11:00.000+08:00

How boring can today be.
Wants to go home and sleep man...... Zzz

2010-09-04T20:43:00.001+08:00

What is the point of going into depression?
You need to see a doctor. You need to take medicine. You need to be scrutinised.
All these cost a lot.

Best solution?
No need for me to type it out.

2010-09-04T20:40:00.002+08:00

I know this will be depressing but,

I really hope my mother will take out a chopper and kill all of us.

It happened in my dream long ago. No kidding.

2010-08-19T02:25:00.001+08:00

Thought I could go somewhere to make me happier.

And now you telling me this might affect your work, so going ahead will just make me look incredibly selfish right?

I had enough.

I really wish I have the courage to take my own life.

2010-07-29T23:50:00.001+08:00

2010-07-13T12:56:00.001+08:00

2010-07-10T12:17:00.003+08:00

Awwwww. Let me rave again.
My ultimate love.

And in pink :)

2010-07-08T01:37:00.001+08:00

Honestly if i were given a chance to change my life, i wouldn't.

I think i have experienced so much more than anyone else and also more fortunate than anyone else. In some ways.

Appreciate every little thing in life.

Quoting my dad: "Always look at people's good points and not their bad ones."

And im actually tryin my best to do so ....hahah it's v difficult i know. But it sorta calms me down everytime I think of it.

Ciao.
Xoxo.

2010-07-06T01:13:00.001+08:00

My 2yr old cousin.

So cute, I can squeeze her dry.

2010-07-04T01:48:00.001+08:00

想起你我就哭

2010-07-02T04:15:00.001+08:00

回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我的心跳

I will always remember the day when I told myself I won't disappoint the people I love anymore.

Two cups of coffee taste better than one.

2010-06-29T00:23:00.002+08:00

Finally a gif!

I dare to say she's the only person whom I ever envy of.

I always feel frustrated when I see so many unread feeds on my google reader whenever I'm back from a trip or sth. Imagine 700 over at some spreesite.

But no matter how many there are at TCBG, I will still click them faithfully because I know I will feel good & lust over her pretty pictures & minimal words :)

Au Revoir`

2010-06-27T03:32:00.003+08:00

I still remembered what didi said recently.

Didi:"Curse you cancer cells!!!"

(omg, i knew i shouldnt look but i still did. and guess what, it's 3:33am. zzz eerie)

Saw this just now. Taken two months ago.

I scolded didi aft lookin at it cos he made the cross-eyed face agn! Grrr he spoiled the beautiful photo. Sobs.

By the way, im typing this using daddy's laptop.

I was okay until he told me that he misses him too. And then tears started to fall. Sigh.

I can only cherish more of what I have now. Love you mummy, love you didi pipi jun, love you every other person <3

2010-06-16T05:18:00.001+08:00

To be honest I don't want to face them.

2010-06-14T05:01:00.001+08:00

今天非常非常的不開心。在巴黎看到鐵塔應該很開心。。

吃飯的時候看到媽咪的眼睛泛淚光，我很傷心。轉頭看到妹妹也是，讓我更難過。我就看著前面的弟弟。。還是那麼開心地笑。所以我就沒有哭。

逛街的時候媽咪一邊講電話一邊掉眼淚，可是我不想看因為我不想哭。

每個人都很難過。。非常不開心，還要假裝在笑。

明天早上就要搭飛機去米蘭了。還是應該回家？

真的很想哭。

2010-05-28T19:18:00.003+08:00

PINK~~~~ <3

Interesting ~~~ <3

2010-05-27T15:03:00.001+08:00

What a sunny day. Feel bit better after coping in the hse for a day.

I basically did this

Haha k.... I'm not so wu liao to take these pics. I found them in my hp. (so credits goes to either pi or di)

On my way to admin bldg now. To get a cheque!! Money from my PSEA account.

Then aft that .... Maybe go buy a nail polish and head on to NLB. Idk for what. I'm bored anw.

I don't like to visit hospital.

Daddy was admitted to A&E ytd noon. He had difficulty breathing cos his lungs accummulated water. Hmm, I was pretty upset. Not only the fact that I was the last to know, but so what if I knew? i can't do much except to look aft pi & di....

I mean this is why we were all skeptical about the holiday trip. It's getting harder for him to even take a shower, change his clothes. How is he going to get on & off the bus, visit so many countries, or even take the 12hr flight?? Sigh.

I guess he doesn't want us to be disappointed. He havent got the chance to visit Europe before too. Even at this point of time, he still wishes to provide the best for us. At least the money that could be saved from this trip can let him do ... probably 20times chemo?

But the point is he doesn't even want to do chemo. And my father is the most stubborn person ard. No one managed to persuade him. This is the most frustrating part.

So I guess everyone is at the hospital today.

I don't like it when I have to act like I'm okay but actually I'm not. I remembered when I saw my dearest waipo in A&E. I just can't help but to cry. And my mum kept telling me not to do that cos i will scare my waigong.

This is why I don't like to go hospital.

You have to act like normal even if your heart wrenches when you see your loved one in pain or discomfort.

Ok I'm here at the admin bldg.

2010-05-26T17:08:00.000+08:00

A very lazy Wednesday.

Every night I need to rely on iphone apps to make me feel tired before I can finally fall asleep. Wth.

2010-05-26T00:30:00.003+08:00

wahaha!

I AM NOT GOING TO THINK ABOUT GRADES SO STFU.

I just bought a cuteeee bling bunny (not playboy bunny) ring from F21. You can think it's Alice in Wonderland bunny :>

I think I'm living a life of a slug. What do I do everyday? Nothing constructive.

I played mj today. Won $40. Just when I thought I was about to be broke. Thank God! But hey, i'm not being complacent ;) But at least I am able to eat much with ease.

Ramen with hy & joyce @ 313. The egg still lost to the one at Ippudo or Marutama. Noodles taste about the same. Unless there's this machine smell that you could taste from your noodles. But nope, there isn't. Only thing is the soup is so tasty that I think there could be a lot of MSG inside. No good.

Just as what joce said, so many launches tdy. I haven even washed up. I knew I already looked through most of them via my phone, but I just wanted a closer look on my desktop. Bigger, clearer. Hmmmmm ... I wonder if I would get my item. Will know by tml.

Tomorrow will be the first day that I have nothing on ever since I came back from overseas. How great!

2010-05-25T01:57:00.002+08:00

Watched Shrek Forever After. Oh my, it's quite touching.

You don't cherish until you lost it.

2010-05-21T03:08:00.001+08:00

In the end i didnt play mj tdy. But anw i woke up (or rather, gained conscious) at the supposedly meeting time. LOL. This is why sometimes i think everything is fated and happens for a reason :^)
(No im not paying copyright fee to Jim Carrey)

I can feel that im gonna 重病 already. Have been popping pills and was in bed at 10pm. Wow. But im wide awake at 2am now. . . And im trying hard to fall back to sleep but fail.

My mum loveeeees to tell me things at the last min. I suspect it's because im always out and she does that to piss me off. But anw it's khs family day on sat at Barrage. So yeah being family day, i have to be there even though i had plans alrdy.

Went to search for Elena's bday present wi mel ytd. Walked ard to talk to camera salesmen. Chatted over Crystal Jade. And I finally told her abt me and ryan recently. Oh well she was shocked. Not gonna say what she said to me. But it was expected cos i didnt hear it just from her.

Whatever it is ... I'm beginning to feel sleepy now. Gonna take a leak and ciao!

I wish i can know who is my future husband and marry him right now. Yes, I've said it. Just marry me.

2010-05-20T05:20:00.003+08:00

Tired.

After horoscoping with melissa & lassie for 2hours, we moved on to watching youtube vids. Ahhhh ... Watching cute guys, cant complain though! :D

Gotta wake up to play MJ later. Wish me good luck!

(I'm seriously living my retirement life now)

Ohohohoh, and I finally found out that my 月亮星座 is actually Aquarius. This fella is the one making me cool and emotionless. Sigh. I always feel bad being so cold-blooded but I just can't help. And it's even worse when I'm a Virgo. Zzz. And my 上升星座 is Pisces! Hahaha. I'm just a confused person.

2010-05-17T03:00:00.003+08:00

Finally MJ-ed!!!

(: and I won money so that makes it even better. Makes my trip all the way to Upp Bt Timah much more worth it.

Melvin's friend was like,"I know this place at Little India. Got super nice dim sum and cheap." Got me super excited, and then I realised it was Swee Choon when he drove us there. OMG la.

Hhahaha. But then it was good. Somehow the XLB tasted a little better. Everything was pipin' hot! :)) And it was melvin & joyce's virgin trip there. Wooohoo!

Been eating a lot these days. . .

Went for the concert with my parents & Jun ytd. It was damn nice. I love the artistes, and the songs!! I called Lesi when the classic songs were sang. She said she almost cried. Me too. Actually I DID cried. Esp when Wan Fang gave her sensational speech. I think my mum teared too.

I am quite emotionally unstable now. So I guess I cry easily.

It's 3am now.

I should go seek help about my photos tml. I wanted to do it today but I woke up late (whats new!!)

Raining monkeys now. Great :)

2010-05-14T23:34:00.001+08:00

Fuck you.

Yes this is what i want to say to you but it's too crude to be on fb/ twitter. So here it is.

Fuck you.

i wish i havent make so many mistakes in my life. i always do things that i regret. my friend tells me that and i jolly well know. but oh well .. at least i've seen many things that others dont. Not something that i'm proud of though.

2010-05-14T02:59:00.002+08:00

I'm back from Middle East and Egypt.

I love it :)

I lost my camera cable, but lucky I uploaded the bsm photos into my laptop already (I must have forgotten to keep it after uploading!!!)

But my egypt photos are still in my camera, and I have no idea how to trf to my laptop using the memory card. Sigh. I guess I have to pay the person at the shop to help me transfer the pics to CD or sth. Sian.

I immediately thought of HH & JZ when I saw this pic.

I kinda miss the people. Oh my.

2010-05-06T06:29:00.000+08:00

IN EGYPT NOW

2010-04-27T07:48:00.002+08:00

BSM-IN-PROGRESS

till ....... :>

Not too bad huh

2010-04-22T10:12:00.002+08:00

Quite funny.

thinking back, why did I even shed those tears for fuck??
i feel so cheated. to think i still shook my head when he asked if i had any questions. I HAD SO MANY BLOODY QUESTIONS IN MY HEAD.

i know i can't blame him for what he is doing, because he must be thinking those ppl are close to him too. but why did he have to hurt my mum? why does he always need to make us, the three pathetic women in the house sad & cry over all these? I dont get it.

I just received a call from my aunt. She's coming over to meet me for lunch.

I am such a weakling. A LOSER. I can cry just by looking at my dad. When he looked at me sternly. I can cry just by listening to my aunt's voice - "I have something to talk to you"

Suddenly I thought about what he said to me ytd. (Surprisingly, it appeases me for a while)

How could anyone of us hate him now? Maybe we do a little, but the opposite of love is not hate right? It's indifference. But we all still care so much about him. So I guess we still love him deep down? Even my mum, I am sure.

I really hope that the day when I could put everything down, I could hug him and tell him I love him, and he would be conscious of that and reply me with the same thing.

Sigh, why can't we have some peace for once?

2010-04-21T14:59:00.002+08:00

@ BSM class now. JZ briefing us about what to do and etc. I cant wait to touch the sand of the desert!!! We are going Desert Safari! Wohoo.

Finally finally got to play some mahjong ytd but i only won $1!!! Saiiii, I thought I could claim back the money that I spent today. zzz tmd really yuan wang money.

This is so cool.

I want to watch Shutter Island, Monga, and Iron Man 2 !!!

2010-04-20T02:41:00.003+08:00

Today wasnt well-spent. Hope for a better tomorrow.

I need to fix my heels, in the morning i hope!!!

Slept too much, still watching tv now. I love BBC Lifestyle.

Gok Wan,
British Fashion Guru, Author, Award-winning TV Presenter.

Watching him hosting Fashion Fix now. I love talented people.

I like it how specs can define someone.

P.S He's a Virgo

2010-04-18T15:34:00.003+08:00

I slept at 8. Woke up at 11am.
I fell aslp pretty fast, and the next moment I woke up... I saw the time WTF 10am only??? So I forced myself to sleep abit more.

TTLY WEIRD.

Went for a run at ECP with lesi ytd night. at 2am?
Wore my sis's shoes which is one size bigger. No good :0
But at least we ran a lot? Though I was dyingggggg... Freaking long since I had my last jog at ECP.

I think I should go for a run tml. Then haircut, then dinner.
Yay!

2010-04-17T18:19:00.001+08:00

V FUNNNNY, i feel bad laughing though

2010-04-16T15:05:00.003+08:00

My thoughts are as random as these today.

Wonders of Tumblr!

Mango Strudel & Ah Chew yesterday night :>> -bliss-

Alone in GSR now. I love to be alone.
Quiet time xoxo.

2010-04-15T00:10:00.002+08:00

Listening to Sam Tsui & Kurt. If not ethics would ve bored me to death.
Go youtube for their songs. Super love acoustic :]

Sam looks irritating when he sings, yet kinda charismatic when he sings reallllly well.

But I bet he's gay.
But gays are the best people.

Ok, back to my crazy hot day today.

I almost got Jay Chou already, but I lost him to even crazier people. Fuck. I hope there's really a second show..... (according to Fel's insider info). I am definitely getting the tickets. I swear!!!

What was I thinking. I was up since 6am. I should have rushed down then right? *&@*#&@# So angry at my stupidity.

Sent Dommy off at the airport yesterday. Oh my. I hope he'll be like ytong, coming back every now & then. I secretly hope he cant get the scholarship there so he will be back for FASS after 4 months. LOL SO SELFISH OF ME.

Now I am realllly eager to go London.

The only reason why I like going to cold countries is cos I can wear nice clothes!!!! Trench coats. YUM :D OMG CANT WAIT.

2010-04-11T14:13:00.002+08:00

" Use the burst effect! I eat the icecream :> "

2010-04-10T00:22:00.003+08:00

I dont know them, I dont know the song.

But it's absolutely lovely!! Love the colours, and reminds me of stop-motion animation.

And they certainly look great in their glasses ;)

It's more than 36hours since I last slept. Zzzzz. I am feeling awake. Probably after a bath, I will zzzz big time.

BSM Minor & Major Project are finally overrrr. No more presentations and reports. Focused-group project is more or less done tooooo. Now it's just the self-evaluation part. Wth man @_@

Wanted to buy a present for Dom just now. But he was eager to meet us, plus since Fel & I really had no idea what to buy (except for undies)..... We might as well ask him to come over and choose. Being such a thick-skinned, he actually said 'nothing'. But we insisted. So .... I guess both of us will treat him to brunch tml. but Dom wants to meet at like 1230. Zzzzzz. Hope we don't start eating at 2.

Anw I ordered roasted pork at Crystal Jade just now. Sua gu Fel didnt try before, and of course it's damn nice!! Must must dip it in the wasabi sauce. Mmmm. Craving for it now.

2010-04-07T13:48:00.001+08:00

Why can't I be like Cheshire the Cat?

Just Fuck Care.

2010-04-05T00:20:00.002+08:00

:D

i've said it. cos i dont wanna ignore it anymore. i'm not being nice, im not happy about it too. anyhow, let me have some peace please.

i don't know why can't i choose to do what i like. sigh, we are under the scrutiny of other people and before we could even say or explain anything, we are judged from head to toe.

anyway i was wondering, what is the point of a secret blog? sometimes i really have the urge to lock everything up so i CAN REALLY write whatever i want, but is it lame? cos people write to let others read right?

so there, read all the lies i have here now.

HAHAHA!!

Yay daddy & mummy are in Chang Zhou now. Even before mummy goes there, she has been complaining about it cos it will be like the previous trip. Climb up & down the mountain in the freezing weather, go to temple to temple, pray & kneel for a long time. I've done that before in Chiang Rai, though it's not cold at all, but it's enough to make me cry.

Even if i have the money to buy everything that they wore, I know I can't carry any of them off.

Saddddd.

I wish I am a model in my next life.

2010-04-02T10:36:00.001+08:00

It's a long road to Yew Tee. Late again. Daddy is maddd :x

There are tears on my cheeks now. Waiting for them to dry naturally cos you dont wanna wipe it, it makes it more obvious that u cried right.

Just met my waipo along the road. Misssss her. I cant stand looking at my grandparents cos i always feel guilty. The last time i gave them money is like what 2yrs ago? Terribly ashamed!

Yeah so after the mad conversations with joce & lassie ytd night, i had a feeling (just so suddenly) that i need to check my internship application.

True enough i got rejected. Damn sad k. Cos the timing is damn good, july - aug for 5 wks only. Perfect eh?? But too bad la. Then i had an internal struggle for quite long, whether to apply new internships....

I selected two but both timings are bad cos they clash with the june trip.

But... Guess what i still applied =.= And now at this moment in time i hope i would not get them. Which might be easy, i hope :)

Fffing stressed.

Ok just reached the chinese doc's place. Gonna get my legs lifted and my back cracked. @_@

Lass, where's your PLAN???

Muacks

2010-03-31T10:39:00.002+08:00

Siao Ding Dongs

My favourite people on Earth

2010-03-30T03:14:00.001+08:00

I wonder how will be my first Louboutin look like?

Hmmmm ...

2010-03-30T03:11:00.000+08:00

Since i dont have a laptop sleeve yet . . .
Why not ?

2010-03-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

:] BONDUE (smu's biz school) @ MR500
== SECOND ==

2010-03-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY (((:

2010-03-26T02:03:00.000+08:00

Let me die.
In great pain now.

2010-03-24T19:02:00.001+08:00

I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

-------
Why do i feel so broken now?
In time to come, whatever that happens, i know i deserved it.
My life is cheap, so am I.

T_T

2010-03-23T18:25:00.005+08:00

My top top fav song recently.

"I think about the little things that make life great.
I wouldn't change a thing about it.
This is the best feeling."

Hmmmmmmmm ... Why do I have so many secrets in life?
You don't know how fucked up I am now.
Maybe, maybe not.

Would you wanna be a human next life?

Suddenly ppl ard me are saying that they don't wanna be human in their next life. Is it that bad? Maybe. But I would still want to be a human, no matter what happened. It's tough. But this is life ya? Dying just once is so pathetic. Sigh :S :S

Anw, should I ask for permission to have a tattoo soon? Or wait till my 21st bday? Hmmm ... Still thinking about what to ink on my body. I'm totally not trying to act cool, it's purely vain.

P.S I like Adam Lambert, cos he's gay.
"I'm here for your entertainment"

xoxo

2010-03-21T15:16:00.002+08:00

@ Marche (:

The rosti is nice whattttt. Felicia has a weird taste.

Happy Belated Bday!

<3 i kept telling dom he's damn handsome and man that day. LOL!!!!

Then we went to a coffee place at Orchard Central. OMGGGG, as in none of us know whats that... and it happened to be so good. I mean the drinks! I bet the chocs are gd too, but too expensive alrdy plus we were too full.

Yingtong doing the neck = waistline thing on dom's skirt. Hhahaa not the end-pdt yet, but looking gd. He's so idiotic... made the skirt so small.

Was out the other day with the girls to EWF, and then drinking at Arab St. How idiotic. We went from Holland V, to Macpherson, to Siglap, to East Coast, then finally . . . . We settled for Arab st. Wanted to faint at our indecisiveness. We appeared drunk even before we started drinking anything ok. Talking nonsense along the way already....

& then joyce's call almost made me crash into the barrier on the road. Lucky me!!

We took loads of photos, but I really want to post this up. Cos hahahaha, the more someone wants to untag herself the more I want this to appear. LOL!!

Putting mask now. My face is chui. PMS period now, so = major breakout. Zzzz.

BYE.

2010-03-21T02:44:00.004+08:00

Omg the urge to chop off my hair is coming back again . . . .

NO.

Felicia finalllly got an iphone today. Seeee, the people around me are all slowly getting it. This shows how awesome it is. Damn fun! Anybody who gets it would never regret at all!

Sigh Joyce was telling me Dragon Trainer is v niceeee. Nobody's gonna watch a cartoon with me anymore. K fine.

I am such a sucker. I need to wake up early to do report. Totally wasted my time.

But at least I met dita & elena just now + the usuals. Ytong's finally back from UK!! Just in time for her belated bday celebration with jelly hearts ordered by dom. Omg mad nice. Actually ytong made it for us before but I guess the one made by a pro is definitely better.

It's not her holidays now, but she's coming back to settle her nus stuff. She's not going back to architecture alrdy. Sad . . . . So lucky. Those who are able to get out of sg just cant wait to do so. While the rest of us . . . Just trap here. Damn sian.

Even dom's gonna leave in a month's time. Though it will be for just 3 months. But . . . . . . . for people like him, you'll never know. He might just stay there for good. Really. SOBS ): ): ):

And that is sth I can never do la, as much as I want. Bleah. I'm just racking my brain to find a proper internship here. Or I might just go TW to do sth.......

Hmm.

(Not gonna go S Africa already. Figured out that it's too scary to be alone)

Anyhow my Egypt trip is confirmed!! So I'll extend one more week to see the pyramids! Thats the only thing I'm excited about. Other than that . . . We'll see. And I really hope the other trip in end May will be realised. Cos I'm totally looking fwd to it since ???

2010-03-17T07:27:00.001+08:00

Just finished writing.

Zzzzzzzzzz. Rise & shine, people.

2010-03-16T18:50:00.004+08:00

Back in school now. 45 mins to my lesson.

Had Ippudo with joce & ryan. We waited so long cos we were in the lunchtime crowd. Zzzz. Then we had to gobble down our noodles in 15mins cos we had a movie to rush.

ALICE IN WONDERLAND! In 3D. YAY!

I was trying hard to focus, not because it sucks but cos of the bloody ppl behind me. They fidgeted a lot and kicked my chair. Even though I turned back to scold that fucker, he ignored me. Grrrr. I had to stop ryan, if not I think he would yell at them anytime.

Anyhow, I think it's a good movie! I love the colours, the graphics, the conversation especially! It's so Tim Burton, :D AIW is not like any other childhood story, it's mysterious & philosophical. This explains why I was very troubled when I watched it when I was young.

Cheshire the Cat is my favourite, no doubt. You know, only he can give such a big cute grin (((: And I kept doubting myself ... I thought the Cat is purple, why was it blue in the movie? I thought what would be TB's motive for that.

"We're all mad here."
- Cheshire Cat

do you remember this?? :D My fav! The part where Alice asked for directions from Cat.

I can't remember what is the full quote. So I googled.

`Cheshire Puss,' [Alice] began, rather timidly, as she did not at all know whether it would like the name: however, it only grinned a little wider.
`Come, it's pleased so far,' thought Alice, and she went on.
`Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?'
`That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,' said the Cat.
`I don't much care where--' said Alice.
`Then it doesn't matter which way you go,' said the Cat.
`--so long as I get SOMEWHERE,' Alice added as an explanation.
`Oh, you're sure to do that,' said the Cat, `if you only walk long enough.'"

"`But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad. You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'
Alice didn't think that proved it at all; however, she went on `And how do you know that you're mad?'
`To begin with,' said the Cat, `a dog's not mad. You grant that?'
`I suppose so,' said Alice.
`Well, then,' the Cat went on, `you see, a dog growls when it's angry, and wags its tail when it's pleased. Now I growl when I'm pleased, and wag my tail when I'm angry. Therefore I'm mad.'"

This is why the movie started out with being mad or not. Right? (:

P.S I kept thinking about the purple Cheshire Cat tail keychain that I bought from Disneyland. I think I'm gonna take it out later. Lovvvve it.

2010-03-16T01:31:00.003+08:00

YES finally it's here. Think we bought the tics like so looong ago.

BREAKOUT. In case you are a sua gu, it's a dance comedy from Korea. They actually came to perform last year. So this is like Part II. They had another production (Jump!) that I've watched with the pig. This is why we wanna watch this, cos they are simply awesomeeeee!

So we dont really know which is better. Cos Jump is more of acrobatic dance, whereas Breakout is really dance dance. Get what I mean? :D But Jump's storyline is probably better. But stillll, we had our fair share of laughter. VERY VERY FUNNY :D and got nice bods to ogle at.

Sorry no photos during the show, so yeah.

And went 85 for supper with lesi & joce that day. After "teo-heng" at Joce's place :DD FUNNN!! Cant wait for your bday. Hehe!

Met them again just now for supper.... Decided to try a new place at Kovan. ICE EDGE CAFE. Cool name. But they were pretty slow in serving the food. Zzzz. BUTTTTT, omg their icecream rocks. Imagine Lychee Martini, Bailey, Mao Shan Wang & etc .....

And we realised that Belgian Choc + Bailey = Mao Shan Wang. YOU SHOULD TOTALLY TRY IT.

Wait for pictures from Joce. So dumb, she forgot to bring her memory card =.=

And I almost died in Lesi's car. If she was taking the driving test just now, she would have failed TWICE. I rather stick to Joce's, slow but safe. WAHAHAhah!

Love you all <3

2010-03-10T04:18:00.002+08:00

How is it possible that you do 16 poses, and all of them look so good!

Only if you are Anne Hathaway (:
Everytime I see her, I associate her with a princess. So Princess Diary eh??? She has the aura, really!

Wtf the rain only lasted 2mins???

Btw my mum & sis had their moment today. HAHAHAHA, tweeted everything. But lesi is AWESOME. She actually recognises my mum from the newspapers!

830am class tml. FML. OMG I need to say this. Yesterday night before I sleep, I was realllly upset so I tweeted "Fuck my life, really. Zzzz"

The next day the first tweet I read was from FML. They retweeted it. Erm ...... Not a good way to begin my morning.

2010-03-08T00:39:00.003+08:00

ever since i got my phone, i'v been watching kang xi lai le almost every night.

some photoshoot for a mag in china. she's actually sitting on the high stool. Awesome pose.

HOTHOTHOT.

HOT.

i really like xiao s a lot. omg.
hahah!

2010-03-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

watched Being Human "做人" just now. i was quite reluctant at first cos you know, local production. but since we gotta wait for siang & joce to watch alice ... hahah no choice.

but it was not bad! not like EXCELLENT, but at least it's funnnny (as usual). and i thought not many ppl would wanna watch that show, cos alice's showing & maybe recent jackneo's incident? but no.

anw, Men are men. period. big zzzz.

i just feel like eating this cinnabon now.

feeling i-need-to-listen-to-old-songs now.
dl-ing stephanie's songs. E.M.O

2010-03-07T02:27:00.003+08:00

Thank God Saturday is OVER. Just this once.

Hopefully Sunday will serve me well!! Really hope I can watch a good movie tml *winks*

Like why am I so obsessed with them, seriously.

They rock :D

Need to watch BBT now. Yes, I AM A GEEK,

2010-03-05T23:29:00.003+08:00

Guess who's gonna be on the cover of Elle (April)?

Almost couldn't recognise her without her curls!

Awesome heels and shifts btw! Fendi?
And that scallop-hem from Stella McCartney <333

2010-03-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

Finally completed all my midterms. It's projects x 4 now. @_@

My cheatsheet for FIIM was completely useless. I am such a dumbo. Sigh. And I did the online MCQ for IEA. Got my marks like straightaway. *heart attack* And lucky I passed. Like why wouldnt I right? The class avg was 80%. While me... wayyyy below. zzzz.

So ... it's here again. FRIDAY! Craziness.

Before I forget, Happy 58th Month!!!

Like whoa. Two in one picture/ mmmms.

// What am I doinggggg.

2010-03-03T20:26:00.002+08:00

Pretty, like craaaazy.

Skipped FIIM today. Sleepy ): Dont think it was useful too. Proj grade was bad, but as expected.

Anyhow, got to study for the two mid terms tomorrow @_@

This is my last shot. (Followed by two project presentations on Tues). BAM.

2010-03-02T11:46:00.004+08:00

I woke up at 10. Twitter on bed for 10mins.
Brushed my teeth at 10:15, and FB for 5mins.
Then it's TUMBLR ~~~

QUITE FUNNY.

There're more & more pictures of Selena Gomez. And damn, she's really looking better everyday. I used to think her mouth is big and yucks. But she slimmed down damn a lot. Catching up on V Hudgens already. But not yet. Cos if Efron & Hudgens come into the picture tgt, they win hands down.

Yay, opened my angbaos on Sunday tgt with my siblings (Last day of CNY!). And I must say it was record high!!! Thanks to my dad contributing to half of it. Whereas less than 10% of it came the pig's family side. But nonetheless, I feel so blessed (:

Actually my point of blogging is that ... I FUCKING PASSED MY JLPT 4!!! Just opened the letter this morning (Best way to start it). And I was kinda nervous, I tried to read it using the backlight until I saw "I am PLEASED". Then I knew it's safe to open ;)

And my score was 346/400! Passing mark is 280 (I must emphasize). LOL!

Ok, if you think it's no big deal then screw yourself. I'm going to take JLPT 3 this year. I hope???

And there are two pregnant ladies in my class now! One's due in Apr, the other ... end may? We didnt notice one of them was pregnant until last week. And then it's so many months already. Her tummy is smaller, so yes we are right. It's a girl. Fujiwara was telling her it's not obvious at all. And then she carried on by telling the other pregnant lady that "While yours is kinda obvious". And then she got sad, cos that's indirectly saying "You're obviously fat." But hey, people got a boy leh.

So yeah if you want to be pregnant, come to my class.

Ok, I need to go ...

P.S Yesterday was crazy. Shall lock it, burn it. Never be told.

2010-02-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

(From terrorplum)

OMGGGG! I felt so embarrassed, I really did the japanese pull on my eyes.

P.S I'm sunburnt. Forgot to apply sunblock on some parts of my shoulders. Damn.

2010-02-28T15:41:00.001+08:00

Flying kite now

Errr i meant plastic bag (for didi). Hahaha!!

2010-02-27T18:38:00.000+08:00

Love it.

I need to bathe. Bye.

2010-02-26T00:53:00.001+08:00

Siggghhhh. The pig's friends jio me for mj tml night but i'v to turn them down. Played wi one of them recently but the other one so long haven play!! And she wanted to play wi me too wahahah ... Sad! This shall give me a better reason to study hard tml.

Sian so slpy aft watching Dear John @ The Grand Cathay. We have our permanent seats alrdy. Q16 & 17. We pee there, marked our territory.

(i wonder if the past tense of pee is 'peed'? Didnt bother to google. Blogging thru phone now. Hehe!)

Btw the movie is quite a disappointment. I've been waiting for the climax for so bloody long but nth happened. Not even hot sex or anything. And the movie can last for almost 2hrs. I kept guessing whether the girl was actually dead or she had some terminal illness (which would b totally lame too).

I cant feel for the longing couple. I actually felt more pitiful for the father who seems to b always alone. Ok to b fair, i think the novel would be much much nicer to read. Otherwise, they wun film it into a movie right?

Supposed to go for some bonding session @ botanic garden tml @ an unearthly hr of 9am???

Gosh.

It's the same as i dont understand how ppl can wake up at 7am everyday even if there's no obligation to do so? Meaning work or sch or appointment shitz. It's just wrong.

Had dinner @ ichiban boshi just now. We shared everything, didnt eat thattt much but still cost $44. It's getting tooo expensive to eat out. I need to think of a solution.

Supposed to hav dinner @ his house ytd but i got fever like suddenly during tuition. My tutee (P1) immediately went out to inform his mum and maid. The kid went to get an instant icepack (for children) to stick on my forehead too. I was soooo paiseh, i felt like telling him i was just jokin abt the fever =.=

Did i mention that i'm now teaching the 3 brothers in a family? All korean mixed. Two of them are twins ;D and they stay just next blk. From my door to their door, probably 3mins?

And i just introed my sis to teach the twins chinese too. But she started to b abit buay tahan alrdy. How the hell is she gonna teach a class of 40 in the future???

Aiya sian ah just words. Nth interesting to take pictures of. I'm not a person to take photos of every single organism ard me.

Hahah!!

I am super addicted to twitter now!!